Drowning
Drowning
Once again I feel my mind sink
Being down here, gotta rethink
Everything changes once you blink
Forcing you to go out, drink
Looking up into the world
Everything seems low-key blurred
Inside my mind I am curled
Always hoping, never cured
All bad habits, addictions
World turned into abstractions
Hearing my own confessions
Hiding outer expressions
What helps is pain, warm red blood
Nothing new, just razor cut
Not thinking, because "so what?"
Keeping your door firmly shut
Help is coming, on its way
You'll be predator or prey
Signed into your DNA
The memories from yesterday
Mother, father, disappointed
All your life goals secret-coded
Relationships almost faded
Feeling overestimated
Trying to leave your own mind
If only your kind what kind
Not being tied by roles that bind
Expectations make us blind
Drunk, not knowing consequences
Not remembering people's faces
Your drunken mind demonizes
Sober you dehumanizes
Your own body your own cage
No matter how you grow and age
Can't get out with fits of rage
Or witchy spells, burning sage
Using drugs to levitate
Life's too hard to navigate
You're trapped, you can only wait
Wait for it to escalate